my heart is heavy

As I write this my heart is heavy. We still have not heard about the funding for the project. The last I heard was them was a message from Richard two weeks ago: "Please do not make any firm plans yet, as there is still no signed agreement with the donor. IRD/DC staff I know are discussing with USDA ways of fulfilling overall obligations vis-a-vis donor under what is a very tight budget." This after I'd been feeling increasingly tense about the lack of communication and the fact that approved funds hadn't been granted since like April/May or sometime due to difficulties between IRD and the USDA attorneys in scoping out the project. I know this must be a challenging one for them, but the lack of communication about what's going on - or even time estimates - has made the project (from my perspective) feel very shaky indeed. My boss at ThedaCare has agreed to hold off on posting my job till this coming Monday, Aug. 3, so I've spoken with Mustafa about it asked him to plan on finding someone else for this project manager role after that date.

I'd really appreciate your prayers about this; while there will of course be a bit of relief at the thought of not having to go through all the crazy changes anticipated, I will also be devastated. I don't doubt that God knows exactly what He's doing, but I don't. And that's ok, but I wouldn't say it's easy. I hope most for the very best for the people of Liberia, and would only want this project to go through if that's what it lead toward.

Thank you, friends.